I just had an incredible first experience with the M-Pen that left me in awe. It was my first time using it, and I couldn't believe the euphoria that washed over me. From the moment I took a full 10-second pull, a feeling of pure joy washed over me. I couldn't stop smiling throughout the whole thing. It was unlike anything I had ever felt before.
I felt an amazing sensation that seemed to radiate from my toes. It was as if every cell in my body was reverberating with pleasure. I never thought I would be so aware of my toes, but in that moment, they became the center of my attention. It was an indescribable feeling, something truly remarkable.
The joy hit me like a wave, and it reminded me of the first time I ever tried ecstasy (MDMA). I remembered how amazing it felt and how that experience was the best thing ever. But then a sad thought popped into my head. I realized that this wonderful feeling wouldn't last forever. I started worrying if I would ever feel that good again. It made me a little bit sad, but I quickly pushed those thoughts away. I didn't want them to ruin the moment.
Even now, I can still feel a slight tingly sensation in my toes. It's like they're holding onto the memory of that incredible experience. And my head felt like it was being pulled into the couch, like I was sinking into it. It was a weird but nice feeling, like I didn't want to move at all.
I just want to make it clear that for me, this was all about the physical sensations, not some deeper meaning. I felt comfortable being wrapped up in the couch, almost like being inside a cozy cocoon. My head seemed to be drawn into the couch, as if I were being gently pulled into another realm. The weight of it all made me feel grounded and disconnected from my physical body. I found it surprisingly comforting.
The whole thing lasted around 10 minutes, but it felt much longer. I couldn't stop smiling the entire time. Everything seemed funny to me, and I couldn't help but laugh. It was a carefree and happy experience that I didn't expect.
After the effects wore off I discussed the experience with the facilitator, and I asked how often the M-Pen should be used, and whether the effects would remain consistent if I were to use it again.
The facilitator recommended using it no more than 1-3 times a week, with the goal of building a consistent meditation practice that doesn’t need the pen. He told me that each time can be a little different, but the general effect is the same. He also said that anyone can learn to meditate or use breathwork to release the 5-MeO-DMT chemicals in your brain, and experience this ego-less euphoria, without using the pen. It’s fascinating to me that this is possible.
As I contemplated the possibility of future encounters, I couldn't help but ponder how I could acquire a pen of my own. The desire to experience this level of euphoria regularly flirted with my thoughts. However, I reminded myself to stay present and enjoy the memory I had created. I didn't want to become consumed by the chase for constant bliss.
Overall, it was an amazing first experience. The pen brought me joy and made me reflect on the fleeting nature of happiness. I won't use the pen to chase after constant bliss, but I will experiment more with the pen and meditation to become more present and happy in my day-to-day.
This user story was created from an audio recording and transcript of an interview. The user’s words were run through an AI large language model to turn it into a more readable account, and the user approved the final text. The image of the user is a CGI depiction. All the names in this report were changed to ensure anonymity.